Sunday, March 15, 2015

The Hypothesis



I am a child of the Information Age.  I was brought up on logic and reason – on BASIC and math.  I did not attend church – never learned to fear hell or hope for heaven – I had no context for these things.  I knew of the world only what I observed – and had no learned context within which to try to fit them on a metaphysical level.

Essentially, I am a child of science.  I learned that the world was best describable and understandable via science, and I had seen no evidence to discount that idea.  It was through this lens then that I approached the existential questions I found myself facing during my crisis.  And as such, the approach I took to trying to answer these questions turned out to be a scientific one.  I basically applied the scientific method to my spiritual inquiry.

The scientific method can have almost infinite stops, but in general six basic ones are described:

     1.       Ask a Question
     2.       Do Background Research
     3.       Construct a Hypothesis
     4.       Test Your Hypothesis by Doing an Experiment
     5.       Analyze Your Data and Draw a Conclusion
     6.       Communicate Your Results

My inquiry into spirituality and the nature of existence really followed this progression.  It was – and remains – a scientific inquiry, and I proceeded within this in mind.

Asking the Question

The question was kind of simple.  Why does life feel so awful a lot of the time?  And is there anything I can do about it?  These questions certainly felt overwhelming at the time – but as I really could not see any solution I proceeded to investigate if there may be answers – and what those answers might be.

Doing Background Research

I began my inquiry with psychology and psychiatry.  I did not get very deep into these aspects and therefore cannot speak to them thoroughly or with any great authority – but I know for me none of the pharmacological solutions seemed to work for me totally, and neither did psychological care.  For me, the thing that really spoke to me and gave me an inkling that these questions I had may have an answer were the more spiritual, even religious and metaphysical areas.  As far as both answering the question of why life seemed so horrible to me and offering a solution to that issue – offering that it didn't have to be that way, the spiritual outlook seemed to give the largest promises of actual resolution  – and I decided to pursue it with all the effort I could.

Constructing a Hypothesis

Once I had decided to concentrate on spiritual matters, I then researched to find exactly what my hypothesis should be.  From all the various religious and metaphysical ideas out there – what parts would I incorporate into my theory? 

I finalized on a hypothesis that loosely follows Buddhism’s Four Noble Truths – that suffering exists, that there is a cause for it, that it can be ended, and there is a way to achieve that end.  Simply stated, the hypothesis in my inquiry was:

The Ego is the cause for a great deal of human suffering – 
and the Ego is unnecessary for human life.

There are many corollaries and aspects to this one statement (which I will be rambling about for many more posts :P), but this statement is the basis of the theory.  That human suffering is (at least in a large part) due to Ego – and Ego is unnecessary.

Testing the Hypothesis

So – I now had a hypothesis – and I needed to gather as much data as possible about whether or not the hypothesis may be true.  To that end, I tried as much as possible to view my life and my interactions with the world in such a way that I could compare the results of these interactions against the hypothesis.  The largest part of this effort was to be impartial in my observations.  As I encountered issues in my life, I had to be as open and honest with myself as possible about the actual motives for my actions and feelings about situations.  And I had to look at all of that and myself with no judgment – with complete objectivity.  I had to essentially remove my personal involvement with my life.  

Part of the hypothesis was that I suffered because the Ego existed – not because X thing happened or because of Y person, but really only because of the Ego.  This meant that preventing X thing from happening, or getting rid of Y person was not going to prevent the suffering – and that was what I had to observe to prove or disprove the hypothesis.  My life continued to be something I lived, yes – I laughed and I cried and I loved and I grieved throughout – but the whole time there was a part who was observing – who was comparing the situation and the data against the theory – and determining whether the theory was supported or not.

Drawing Conclusions

Even fairly early into this process, there were multiple instances where the data I gathered – when I looked at impartially – strongly indicated that the hypothesis may be correct.  If you've ever had a “light-bulb moment” – where you saw things suddenly in a whole new perspective and everything just seemed suddenly so…simple…then you know what I mean.  

Throughout all my experiences so far though, I have not yet seen an instance where the theory did not apply – or where I could conclusively say that the theory was incorrect.  Through all my investigations and experiences – through all my experiments – the theory continues to be supported and maintained.  Through 15 years of experience – of life – I have come to the conclusion that the hypothesis is in fact correct – that the Ego is the cause of most of the suffering I observe, and that it is not necessary for human life.  I cannot say I have proved it – the point of scientific investigation is never to prove anything – but I can conclusively say that the theory is supported by the evidence I have gathered, and from all indications is in fact the “truth”.

Communicating the Results

This – essentially – is what this blog is about.  It is an attempt to communicate the results of this decade-long experiment of mine into the nature of reality – and the nature of humanity.  I will be using this as a platform to expand upon the hypothesis and describe my observations.  This is basically publication – the holy grail of scientific investigation.  And as I am unaware of an authoritative source for this particular kind of result, for now self-publication will need to suffice, and I’ll be doing it here. :)

A Note About Science

Part of the basis of the scientific method is that the results can be reproducible.  No scientific experiment’s results are considered valid unless those results can be replicated – at will – by any other investigator who so desires – at any time and in any place.

This is…difficult…with these particular results. :)  The data in this experiment is not numerical – it’s not measurable by an instrument or quantifiable.  In fact – it’s not even technically divorceable form the observer’s perspective.  So much of it is about feeling – about individual perception – that calling it science is probably close to blasphemy.

The inquiry though – I believe the inquiry can be scientific.  Exploring this hypothesis does not require faith, or belief, or devotion.  It only requires a totally open mind – that the hypothesis could be true – and an impartial observation of the data and whether it supports or does not support the theory.  And it may be an important inquiry; because if the hypothesis is true – if Ego is the cause of the majority of our suffering and the Ego is unnecessary – then it means that a good deal of our suffering is essentially something we endure by choice.  It further means that the perpetuation of that suffering is within our power to stop or persist – and that every day that we choose not to investigate is another day that the suffering continues, for no reason other than the absence of asking the question.  I say this is the case – I have been investigating this and I say there is evidence and the theory does hold true.  You do not need to believe me though – all you need to do is perform your own experiments and gather your own observations, and draw your own conclusions.  I offer you the theory – what you want to do with it is up to you. But if you’re curious –if you want to see – you can follow me; and we’ll proceed down the rabbit hole together.  :)

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